Photobombing in Asia
Sunday, May 27, 2012 at 12:29PM Good night Hong Kong
I'm in a lot of pictures in Asia, but I didn't ask to be in most of them. It reminds me of my home in Washington, DC; there I wind up in a lot of other people's vacation photos, too. Tomorrow morning I'm heading home.
We just got back from our weekend in Bangkok. I didn't expect Thailand to be this different from what I've already seen of Asia, just as I was getting comfortable in Hong Kong. There's a lot I don't know, which should seem obvious when I realize I expected Thailand to be similar to Hong Kong just becaues they share a continent. One of the most uncomfortable parts of travel is not the walking or the jetlag or the long flights. It's the overturning of expectations. The first time you see a place and realize your expecations, however vague, failed to prepare you for the experience of being there, it can be overwhelming. It's like being tasked with translating a live event in a language you only started learning yesterday. But it's not uncomfortable in a bad way.
This is not the same as disappointment. It isn't always worse than what you'd expected; but it is almost always different. The overturning of expectations is proof of how little you know. The best thing I learned this week is that I know almost nothing. I know nothing despite my pre-trip reading, despite everything I picked up on my last trip to Asia, despite my innate assumptions formed from movies and TV and accounts from friends and family. Travel is humbling. Even if I were to spend a year reading every history book on a country, learning its language, and watching its TV shows, I would still be humbled by how little I knew about it the first time I went there and experienced it personally.
After I'm humbled, I have a choice: love everybody, or fear everybody. Mostly I'm willing to love everybody. The woman holding the wiggly baby, who sold me a lotus bun on Cheung Chau. The lanky Asian twentysomething in a Sex Pistols tee shirt and fauxhawk-ponytail who deposited the tea at my table in the cafe in Hong Kong. The Nepalese man who practiced his English on me on the ferry. The woman in the Chatuchak weekend market who was taking a nap in her stall with one of the skirts on display draped over her head. The testy-looking International Finance Douche hunting for a cab in Central. The seven-year-old Indian girl who ran up to the hotel pool in Bangkok and dipped her feet in, hiking up her painfully formal dress and looking over her shoulder to make sure her mother wasn't looking.
I love people even when they're being annoying or ripping me off. It must be why I project all the signals of a pushover to street market vendors worldwide.
I love the people I see, but I still know nothing, and loving them doesn't mean I know anything more about their lives than I did before. Constantly remembering that I know nothing keeps me humble and leaves my mind hungry. A hungry mind keeps foraging. It gets frustrated when it runs up against a barrier, like language, that it can't crack to get to the goodies inside. Signs blink at me in bright colors to the blast of store announcements, all insisting I understand something I can't. It's as if the sign is trying as hard to communicate with me, as I am trying to read it. I have better luck with people because there are other ways around language, but I miss being able to read everything around me. My eyes constantly seek sense in words I don't even know the sounds for, letters that are almost indistinguishable to my eyes.
Slow down; learn what you can where and how you can and take your time untangling the rest. If you work hard enough, you can always go back.
On the Skytrain to Sala Daeng, I wondered what it would be like to do a writing project, if I had the means: put all my stuff into storage and travel for a full year, spending a month or two in each place. I thought if I put all my stuff away, I would cease to have a home, and I would depend on other people to share their homes with me, figuratively. But I am glad to be going back to DC, even as I loved my week here and am already planning my next trip back.
Washington is home for me, and not just because all my stuff's there. It's my home for more than the proximity to my parents, or the friends and coworkers who give me joy, or the cosy apartment and my wonderful roommate, thorough blessings all. It's for the feeling I get taking a walk alone on a Sunday morning that these streets and sidewalks have a personality and we understand each other. Home is the place to which I can take what I've learned and begin to understand it.

